Solange's contribution today is a song by PINK,,,,Who Knew.
 Thank you Babycakers, it's beautiful. 

2015 and you would be 34yrs old

Another year has gone by my love. I miss you so much. You would be 34yrs old.  Your brother is expecting another son. Chase is going to be a big bother, can't wait to see him. Due in June And Tristan has moved to Gainsville. I wish I had a reliable car to go see him. Life is so upside down right now. I wish you were here so I could talk to.

I held him safe within my womb
And kissed him in the birthing room
I held his hand in sickness too
And now I don't know what to do

My son, my child, my flesh and bone
Has died and left me all alone
And in the night when no one sees
I cry and end up on my knees

I cry to God and ask Him why
My precious son he had to die
And when the morning light appears
That's one more night I've spent in tears

And as the years they slip away
I learn to live just day by day
I turn to God who was so far
I look to where the answers are

I put my hand into His hand
He pulls me up and now I stand
I hear my Father say to me
'My Son He died upon a tree

I know the pain that mothers feel
When life turns black and robs and steals
And takes a portion of your heart
And tears your very soul apart'

Oh Lord I pray, please make me whole
Replace the joy that life has stole
This pain, this loss, is part of me
But still I'm longing to be free

I choose to walk out through the door
And melancholy reigns no more
I leave behind the shades of grey
To walk in light, to kneel and pray

' Come to me child, I've heard your cry
I saw your tears when your child died
Rest in me and find your peace
Replace your pain and find release'

Despite the fact we had to part
You still live on within my heart
There'll never be a day go by
A tear wont fall from your mother's eye

Frank McEleny

http://youtu.be/tskl5uPQ7X4

Eu nunca amei alguem como eu te amei.

My answered Prayer

I think it may be hard for some to understand but my son actually saved my life. He was the single best thing that ever happened to me. The first time I experienced true love or any love for that matter same goes for affection and true happiness was when I found out he was growing inside of me. He was my dream come true. He was my answered prayer. I prayed to God for everything he was/is. I also found out recently he is alive to Jehovah. So everyday I beg Jehovah to have his name written down in Jehovah's book of life. It's what get's me through. Knowing that Jehovah's mercy and His undeserved kindness may actually permit me to survive this system of things and be able to see my son, my answered prayer and be there with all my babies in paradise.

My Best-Friend

Sometimes I feel so selfish missing my Tony and wanting him near. He was not only my son, whom I could count on for anything and everything but he was also my best-friend. For example, the situation I am in now, he would never had let it come to this. Jehovah gave me Tony to take care of but He knew Tony would take care of me also.
Now there is only an emptiness inside me. I felt a sadness, sort of, when Tony was born thinking while still inside me I could protect him from the harm in this world but when I gave birth I felt I no longer could do this because with each passing day I was going to teach him how to be a little more independent until one day he wouldn't need me anymore. But as for me, I would always need him. Now all I can do is pray that Jehovah has his name written down in his book of life, he;s still alive to Jehovah, and my hope is to someday see that precious smile again in paradise.

My baby boy would've turned 32 today. I remember that night I went into labor. Your father hadn't come home yet and my water just broke. I was determined to have your Dad there with me that I waited. But meanwhile I took a shower even though right after my water broke the contractions had started 5 minutes apart. He finally got home and away we went. We lived in Pinellas Park but the Hospital was in Indian Rocks Beach. We arrived at the hospital but you still made me wait 17 1/2 hours before you were born. What a gorgeous baby you were. Your father was so proud to have his son.
My Tony was everything I prayed to Jehovah for, above and beyond what I asked for.
I pray every night for your name to be written down in Jehovah's book of remembrance. His book of life.
Thank you Jehovah for my reason for living and loving. Thank you for my blessings.