This is a beautiful dedication written to my son from April. Seeing this makes me happy? to remember how much of an impact Tony had on other peoples lives. When I tell people he was special there are people who actually know what I mean. This is what April wrote for Tony on the day he would be 26 years old and I love you April for remembering him this way....

TO MY BROTHER

WHERE DO I START?

NOBODY KNOWS HOW MUCH YOU
REALLY MEANT TO ME
I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW I
CAN MAKE THEM SEE
THAT I LOVED YOU SO MUCH AND ARE
A BIG PART OF MY HEART
FOR ALWAYS AND FOREVER EVEN
THOUGH WE ARE APART

I LOVED EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU,
YOUR STRENGTHS AND YOUR FLAWS
AND NOW THAT I AM WITHOUT YOU
I FEEL SO EMPTY AND SMALL
I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND DREAM
OF YOU NEAR
BUT WHEN I WAKE UP ALL I
CAN SEE ARE TEARS
YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME
WHEN I NEEDED SOMEONE TO TALK TO
YOU WOULD HOLD ME CLOSE AND
SAY "GIRL YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU"
YOU USED TO TELL ME THAT EVERYTHING
WOULD BE OK
YOU WOULD HOLD ME TIGHT AND
WIPE MY TEARS AWAY

I KEEP WAITING FOR YOUR PHONE
CALL ASKING IF I CAN TALK
AND SEE IF I CAN COME OVER SO
WE CAN GO ON OUR LONG WALK
I CHERISH EVERY MEMORY AND
MOMENT THAT WE SPENT TOGETHER
I WILL HOLD THEM IN MY HEART
FOR ALWAYS AND FOREVER

I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY
YOU HAD TO GO AWAY
AND WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT I COULD
OF DONE TO HAVE MADE YOU STAY
I WILL ALWAYS WONDER, "WHAT IF
I WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE?"
I WOULD HAVE TO SAY I LOVE YOU
ONLY THROUGH MY PRAYERS?

THERE IS NOTHING I WOULDNT GIVE
TO BE ABLE TO GO BACK IN TIME
JUST TO SAY THAT I LOVE YOU
AND HOLD YOU JUST ONE MORE TIME
YOU HELD EVERYONE TOGETHER THAT
MUCH I CAN SAY IS TRUE
YOU MEANT SO MUCH TO EVERYONE
AND WISH TO SEE YOU SOON

I CANT IMAGINE WHAT MY LIFE WOULD
HAVE BEEN LIKE WITHOUT YOU
I JUST WISH THAT MY DAUGHTER COULD
HAVE KNOWN WHAT THAT WAS LIKE TOO
SHE WILL ALWAYS KNOW WHO YOU ARE
SO WHEN SHE DOES FINALLY MEET YOU
YOU CAN HOLD HER IN YOUR ARMS


IN MEMORY OF ANTONIO
03-04-1981 TO 04-13-2004

WRITTEN BY APRIL